Bounce

Well, whatever one can say about this time of limbo, it does allow for circumstances like this morning's- an hour and a half at one of those bouncy places! You know, I am just going to interrupt this right now to say, "Hello, hello, hello, is there anybody out there?" I hate it when people talk this way, but I do know why. I think part of the problem is I want to talk about what is real here, but don't want to let the mess of my unresolved feelings and thoughts spew forth to go out and create mischief little demons. But then I ask myself who the hell would find this or read it anyway? I could go stark raving mad on here and it couldn't make a wripple. I think we are alone here, between me and me. And do you want the raw, dark stuff out there? I have a couple of old journals that fester in the pile there. How many people keep these blogs? I mean, I have probably a hundred journals from my twenties and thirties, and here I am now doing this on a computer, those sit in a closet and this sits here in etherspace, well what the heck is this for? It is the same thing, but less honest because it is public, but, shit. . . the bounce place was tons of fun. I would like to go to one on my fortieth.

Lost Days-The iphone is plied to more pedestrian use

Missing Pieces
The old neighborhood at Alamo Square -still home
Buena Vista-how rich i was, owning those hills and paths every day. . .
A Great Horned owl, caught on photo-then his mate!
Vegan chinese, Happy Birthday in Chinese at the table behind us-so glad to be home
Castro Street Fair-so so so glad to be home, Caterpillar says, "Who. . . are. . . you?"
Thirteen deer in Belmont.
Watching Slings and Arrows.
Soft bed in Belmont after running the hills
Joy at seeing all the babies together in Nashville. We are a parade wherever we go.
I imagine I hear my cell phone ring in an infinite loop, just under the surface.
My camera is my good friend-keeps pace with me-keeps me at home with myself as the world shifts so quickly.
Genna and Rider in ever evolving imaginative play. . . Rider lying down to sleep last night in a petal colored tutu and a sleep diaper.
Beautiful Children
Perfect ease in being with my wonderful sister. So good to have home in others. Somewhere I belong. I always laugh hardest with my family. Tears of laughter.
Finding Big K Sparkling Water at Krogers!
The Halloween department at Target with 18 month old twins, a three and a four year old-hilarity. Genna in an enormous hairy mask-she looks like a mutant troll!
I could seriously collect face soaps and potions. I love the ritual.

This is your brain on the road

Even the crush of traffic as we get closer to San Francisco is comforting. The sun is down but still flaring over the horizon. A Shell sign glows brightly behind a silouetted tree and the sky glows orange around it. After the strobing of light through the trees and the swearving roads of the midafternoon, the smooth hills, fillaments of fences and softening of light comes in a wash of relief. Now all is sillouette, embers of sunset and the carnival of road lights. We glide through the stream of traffic in our little livingroom on wheels.


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California Border

We just flew over the border. We feel joyful to be back, to point out the manzanitas to Rider. Beautiful California. Now I remember pushing down any sadness I felt in leaving. California is a lot to try to push down. We were embracing the new when we left, fleeing a fright of a neighbor, anxiety of the familiar. So I guess that is what made leaving possible, well, that and economic necessity. Still, there is much to solve before we know where we'll put the Rose Geranium. Very much. We'll be leaving some friends, Rider's birth tree, the glorious Portland Farmer's market, Sapphire's NIA class, Last Thursdays on Alberta, the Fruit Loop, Sauvie Island with it's berries, corn mazes and harvest festivals, a beautiful house and vegetable garden...many things, but these were in some ways, forgive me, Portland, consolations. Meaning this. As much as a person may have to recommend them, as much as they may be to so many, if the chemistry isn't there you can't make yourself fall in love. And you will always know that and feel guilty that you can't appreciate them as is certainly their due. And you are taking up space that belongs to a true Portlander. So maybe we'll mark it down as an opportunistic affair, "Honey, love the one your with." So we'll tip our hat to Portland and wiggle our berry stained fingers as we head south. "Yeah, that Portland, she was a great hal." And California will unfurl in front of us, blowing our minds until there is no room for anywhere else.


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The Elizabethan Stage, Ashland

So suited for so many situations. A socket for the imagination. Bzzzzzzzt!


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Ducks!

Ashland ducks. Much more fun than cars!






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Trucks are really gorgeous nighttime death machines

I swear, you can hear their breaks screaching like the wrathful undead. They have terrified me since the torrential rain hit us that night returning back from New Orleans in college.


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